I would (and have) worked myself into unnecessary living because I thought 'it' was more important to see things through.
I also realize that life is too short to continue down a path that doesn't serve happiness.
I know what makes me happy. I know where to find my joy. Sometimes I ignore that path because it's not always possible to be in the life you want... sometimes you have to be in the moment of creation of that reality.
It takes time. It takes sacrifice. But sacrifice comes in many different forms.
It's also realizing your truth. And being in that truth is not always sunshine and daisies. SOMETIMES it's dealing with the bullshit for a few hours to have a month of joy. As long as there is something to keep you on course.
My course has changed.
Right now. I am trying to adjust. I know where I want to be. But, there is a block and obligations with responsibilities I have committed myself too. There are future plans that might be affected.
And I loathe it. I loathe this wait time. This patience. Not because I want to be irresponsible... rather two different worlds of responsibility are calling to me. I know the path I want. And I'm not sure if I'm waiting to move or if I can't.
I have discussed the future of both paths with my Hubs and my friends. I have pondered and contemplated.
We all know the truth; everything could end tomorrow. So the question becomes, "Have I lived my life in a way that when I leave I have no regrets."
And right now, if I don't make a change, I will have regrets. They're not here yet.... but the seeds have been planted.
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