Sunday, September 4, 2016
Time for some Moxie
There are times when my mantra of 'finding my way, living this dream' seems to really resonate. Then there are days like today...
I haven't been feeling a 100%. Lethargy and stuffiness. Nothing to be concerned about. But there has been just enough affliction and there is nothing pressing on this Sunday.... so I have been lazy.
And now, as the day is winding down I am stepping out of the haze and have decided I need some productivity.
Unfortunately, there really isn't anything to be done on Sunday evening this Labor day weekend. My hubs is working and won't be home until later. Coco loco has headed off to sleep. And I am pushing back against the melancholy that always follows days like this. Days when I wish I had done something. Anything. Days that I missed out on.
The occasional lazy day is fine by me. And truthfully, I really was not feeling like myself today. Telling myself that right now feels like a cop out though.
I know I should have put my book down and gotten off the couch.
I wish I had spent more time with my yoga practice.
I didn't do either of those things... or anything else for that matter.
So now, now is the time to set a new intention for myself. One that I have been resisting for awhile because there have been a thousand other reasons.... and in all honesty I have procrastinated. I am very big into procrastination.
It's time to find my creativity again. It is time to refocus my energy... now that I have it. It's time to be the best version of my creative self.
Lately it seems as if so many of my friends are having their own sort of creative revolution. While I am so proud of their accomplishments and determination, I am regretting the lack of my own. I have abandoned all forms of creative art~writing, painting, photography.... shit even baking has been off limits.
Now I have a choice. I can continue to consume myself and my time with 'what ifs' or 'when I can get around to its'. Or, I can just fucking get over myself and be prepared to fail. Because, really, that (failure) is the worst thing that could happen.
Figuratively lighting my creative fire isn't actually going to start a literal, earthly maelstrom.
Will I have failed if I try?
Do I know where or how to tune into my creative self? Maybe, kind of.... I think.
I know it's going to take moxie. And I think I might still have a little of that in me. ;)
I haven't been feeling a 100%. Lethargy and stuffiness. Nothing to be concerned about. But there has been just enough affliction and there is nothing pressing on this Sunday.... so I have been lazy.
And now, as the day is winding down I am stepping out of the haze and have decided I need some productivity.
Unfortunately, there really isn't anything to be done on Sunday evening this Labor day weekend. My hubs is working and won't be home until later. Coco loco has headed off to sleep. And I am pushing back against the melancholy that always follows days like this. Days when I wish I had done something. Anything. Days that I missed out on.
The occasional lazy day is fine by me. And truthfully, I really was not feeling like myself today. Telling myself that right now feels like a cop out though.
I know I should have put my book down and gotten off the couch.
I wish I had spent more time with my yoga practice.
I didn't do either of those things... or anything else for that matter.
So now, now is the time to set a new intention for myself. One that I have been resisting for awhile because there have been a thousand other reasons.... and in all honesty I have procrastinated. I am very big into procrastination.
It's time to find my creativity again. It is time to refocus my energy... now that I have it. It's time to be the best version of my creative self.
Lately it seems as if so many of my friends are having their own sort of creative revolution. While I am so proud of their accomplishments and determination, I am regretting the lack of my own. I have abandoned all forms of creative art~writing, painting, photography.... shit even baking has been off limits.
Now I have a choice. I can continue to consume myself and my time with 'what ifs' or 'when I can get around to its'. Or, I can just fucking get over myself and be prepared to fail. Because, really, that (failure) is the worst thing that could happen.
Figuratively lighting my creative fire isn't actually going to start a literal, earthly maelstrom.
Will I have failed if I try?
Do I know where or how to tune into my creative self? Maybe, kind of.... I think.
I know it's going to take moxie. And I think I might still have a little of that in me. ;)
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