It didn't feel all the way complete to me. Because I'm not there yet. In this new place that I'm in.
I really love my new job. I am so happy to~
1) PROVIDE... For my family.. In an honest, thoughtful way.
2) THINK... Not just do.
3) LEARN... This new work environment is so different from anything I've done before.
4) CREATE... My future in a different way.
But, I'm not all the way in a groove yet. I understand what is expected of my day. I enjoy what the day brings. I'm just not out of my self-conscious, unsure what happens next, how to prioritize my time sort of phase.
It's going to happen. I know this.
I am grateful that today is my Friday. It was an exceptionally long week.
I missed my practice. Because it is cold and I lack any motivation in the winter.
Even so, I was able to do the other things that feed my soul.
Tonight I embibed in the life that exists when we let it.
I always live more creatively in that space. I can, will, do and am productive in the reality of a work week. But, I flourish in the unpredictable, undefined places where passion and drive meet life.
I really adore my new vocation. It inspires and challenges me. I see an alternate direction. This new possibility is satisfying and reassuring.
There is the part if me that longs for the TIME to be more than what happens in the work week though. I had become very comfortable living in a bohemian sort of way.
I will come back to that. It's just not right for right now. Instead I will be grateful for regular bedtimes and predictable schedules. The beauty in simplicity IS really something to savor.
